Failure at Life?

Wall - Havana, Cuba 2009

"Wall - Old Havana" Havana Cuba 2009

I was on the pity pot a couple of weeks ago.  Unable to recognize any tangible accomplishments in my personal life.  I began to lament on whether or not I’ve failed at this life.  I was beating myself up, comparing my life to what appears to be the norm of our society.  Let’s see… I should be married or at least divorced with children and probably grandchildren.  Oh yeah and I should have some ink somewhere.  None of this is true for me.   I’m single, no children, currently unemployed and there’s no significant other in my life.  I began to wonder, “What have I done wrong?  What opportunities did I miss? Who will be there for me when I am unable to do for myself?”

Once my Ego could no longer find anything to beat me up about, my mind was quiet and in that silence I heard some stunning questions: “Why are you looking at your life through mankind’s eyes?  Are you here to meet mankind’s expectations or are you here to meet God’s expectations?  The weight of those questions really slapped me in the face.  I believe that I am here to grow in compassion, love and understanding, to grow spiritually to elevate my Soul.  Based on that belief, I have accomplished quite a bit.  I am more compassionate, loving and my understanding has grown exponentially.  I might not be able to see these accomplishments in tangible forms but I know I have achieved them.  I realized that it’s unfair for me to compare my life with the goals seemingly set by mankind because they are transitory and often times arbitrary.  The heaviness on my heart lifted as I stepped into this new awareness.  I acknowledged what’s really important to me.  I may not be married or divorced or have children or grandchildren and I surely won’t be unemployed or unattached the remainder of this life.  None of that really matters.  What really matters, what’s important to me, is that I have grown in compassion, love and understanding for myself and mankind and that I continue to grow.  At least, that’s my perspective!

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About Michele

I describe myself as an "Intuitive Medium." I possess a heightened level of extra-sensory perceptive skills and I am able to communicate with "unseen" energies of consciousness. I have faced many challenges but I have been able to use these skills as tools to help me learn and grow. I think of conscious awareness as the “pause” between heartbeats. It’s a split second opportunity to be in control, to think and decide what is the appropriate response in any situation. This blog is a chronicle of my journey to living a more consciously aware, thoughtful, life.

Posted on October 28, 2011, in Spirituality and tagged , , , , , , , , , . Bookmark the permalink. 4 Comments.

  1. These are some wonderful words. It’s true we do get caught up in the should, could, would’s in our society or our lives. It is important to check back in and celebrate our own soul and spirit’s evolution. Great!

    • Thanks Melanie

      You are so right. I’m often amazed at how often those pesky shoulds, woulds and coulds interfere with my peace of mind, once I recognize what’s casuing me dis-comfort.

  2. I agree completely that success has to be defined by the individual, in terms of what is important to them. For the spiritually directed, success is defined by our personal growth and ability to be peace and love in our world, regardless of the form of expression. For someone more materially directed, success may only be defined by the relationship, career, cars, houses, furnishings, etc.
    Failure is not an option! Regardless of what is important to you, you are successful right where you are the moment you choose to show up and live the life that is unfolding before you. You are a masterpiece in progress!

    • Thanks Nancy,
      I am glad that moments like that don’t come too often or last too long. Sometimes, we lose sight of our “true” selves and what we value. I’m grateful for the “Voice” that prods me to remember what’s important and what this life means to me. I am also grateful to have you as a friend to remind me that I’m okay right where I am at every moment that I am.
      As Ray Kroc said, “When you’re green you’re growing and when you’re ripe you’re rotten.” I want to always be Kermit the Frog green!

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