Monthly Archives: March 2012
Posted by Michele
These past three weeks have been filled with what I can best describe as life changing insights. Not all of them brought a new awareness. Some were reminders of things I had forgotten. They all felt connected. Last week, the connection revealed itself.
Within hours of publishing my last post, the first insight arrived. As I read the post, I knew the choices I would make. For years, when I needed to make a decision and I felt fear, I eventually chose to face the fear. Fear was a “green” light not a “stop” light. In one instance, it took 2 years for me to face a fear. I took the leap of faith and I don’t regret it for a minute. There’s no reason for me to change my approach, now. I can only conclude, I was so caught up in the fears I was experiencing, I forgot how I handled fear in the past. At some point, after remembering my approach to fear, I noticed I no longer felt any emotional stings. The feelings had faded away. I had an awareness of the fear but I no longer felt the sting. Knowing what created the fears helped but it didn’t erase or stop the feelings. It was my remembering I have a method for handling fear that stopped the feelings. Once the fearful emotions are gone, fear loses its power and it becomes a conquerable opponent. I went to church the following Sunday and the message spoke to me. It was about “Nonresistance.” It validated what I knew to be true; “stop resisting.” I enjoyed the message so much I bought the book it was based on.
The next insight arrived courtesy of my dog. He has issues with noises. Someone suggested I try using treats to get him use to the sound of hand clapping. Well, that wasn’t a good idea. Just a couple hand claps sent him into such stress that we lost some of the ground we made over the last 2 years. It took almost 2 weeks for him to recover and trust me again. I spoke with my sister-in-law and she advised me to accept that he has P.T.S.D. and he’ll never get use to certain sounds. Accept, now that’s a novel idea. The following morning, I woke up lamenting some decisions and before I knew it, I received the following proposition:
Voice: What if you accepted that your life and everything you’ve experienced has played out as it was supposed to? What if you accepted that regardless of what advice you did or didn’t follow, it wouldn’t have made any difference, you would have had the same experience? Can you accept that? What would change, if you accepted that everything is as it is meant to be? What if you accepted there is no right or wrong choice and it wasn’t the decision that mattered but how you handled the results of it? Read the rest of this entry →