It’s hard to believe it’s been almost 3 months since my last post. Almost immediately after the last post, the Voice spoke.
Voice: It’s time for you to start applying what you’ve learned. You could continue writing about profound revelations but it’s time for you to apply some of that “enlightened” knowledge to your life.
That wasn’t what I expected to hear but with any course of study, sooner or later you’re going to take a test. I had no idea how to apply all that had been revealed or where to begin. I was scared. Slowly, the Universe presented opportunities for me to apply what I learned.
One day, I was feeling sad, for no apparent reason. Tears began to fall. Images of my teenage years flashed through my mind. I remembered how much fun I had hanging with my friends, riding bikes, playing cards and my first boyfriend. I realized, I was feeling sad because of having to “let go” of my past. I felt that I’d no longer have a connection to who I was. The “new” me would have no connection to those memories. I was confused. I had no idea why I believed that applying these new insights would require me to leave fond memories behind. I felt I had to disconnect from all that I use to be and did. I was drowning in a sea of sadness. As my tears continued to fall, I heard the Voice.
Voice: You don’t have to let go of all of your memories. You only need to let go of your past.
Me: I don’t understand. How do I let go of my past and still hold on to my memories? Aren’t they one and the same?
Voice: The past is continually being created. Every millisecond creates a past. Memories are mental records of past events. You don’t have to let go of fond memories. They created happy and comforting thoughts and emotions. You are being asked to let go of the negative emotions and thoughts created by some past events. It’s a subtle but important distinction. You may or may not remember those past events. Read the rest of this entry
This past week was intense. I dealt with many distinctly different personalities. It was an exercise in acceptance, flexibility and patience. My skills in customer service, diplomacy and management came in real handy. The Mercury retrograde and yesterday’s eclipse definitely played a major role in the chaos. I am usually cautious and prepared for a retrograde, in order to minimize the effect on my life. This time I was neither cautious nor prepared.
I first learned about astrology from my maternal grandmother. I was 10 years old, crying on her shoulder, telling her how I felt that neither my brothers nor my father really loved me. She suggested that I get an astrology book to learn about my personality traits (as defined by my time and place of birth) and those of my brothers and father. She told me the story about my aunt (deceased long before my birth) coming home after attending a seminar on astrology and sharing what she learned. My grandmother read the book my aunt had and was impressed with the accuracy of the information. She became a believer in this science. She read books on the subject and even subscribed to a monthly magazine. My grandmother was an open-minded woman for her day and age. Read the rest of this entry